Be Bliss

For this journal, it‘s a special one. I would like to tell the story about our love affair. I want to start since we met for the purpose of reminding your memory.From the beginning, we knew each other for 6 years ago. It’s a long time that relationship started with friends, but when we were in high school, it’s less time we talked together. Our relation stared seriously when we’re first year student in campus. In that time, I was available. You came to my life  and  pay court on me. But there’re no secret in the world, I knew later that you already had your own girlfriend. Yes… I felt disappoint. However I didn’t falling in love with you so much because time we spent together was so short, it’s just 2 months. So, we broke up and back to spend life as it was. And then I had my own boyfriend.

3 years pass, I broke up with my boyfriend. You came to my life again. And this time I told you before that our relationship just be friend only. I didn’t want to engage you and myself. Hence, I never asked you about your new girlfriend. But unfortunately, I found something about your new girlfriend. Women instinct moved in my head and couldn’t avoid it. So, I decided to ask you about her. Yes… I got the answer and disappointed again. I cried out. It’s a second time of lie me. So, I found new boyfriend in order to make it equally. I know that it’s not good idea, but this time I can’t quit because you make me understand about the definition of love. Love is the feeling of two persons being happily when they spend time together. And you just like my love. I feel good and blissful when stay with you, but we know well we can’t be real lover. So, We become love affair, hiding paramour from our real one.

But the bad feeling happened at last weekend, when I drove back to my home after we had lunch. I didn’t know why I thought like that. What if we still be affair, how about the ending. You said you love me,    so do I… I love you too.  But in the future, I believe that someone of us have to go away, and another one surely get hurt … much love much painful.

So, I faced a dilemma that I should stay and be good to you or walk away and stopping loving you.  A part of my mind feels love, but another part feels hurt. A part of my mind tells me to walk away but another part tells me not to do it because I know I can't live without you

Finally, I glad that I can pass this bad time. I want you to know I realize that I can’t live without you. So, that is my solution. I shall never let you go and lose you again.

With love from your affair